Life Where Everything are Just A Joke

Have you always trying to change your status in life? Hell yeah you did, and obviously most people said yes as answer. But why is it so hard for me to believe all that? Just roughly telling, life is never perfect like how we wanted and it is always a joke on the coffee table when you are trying to speak about it.

Whoever is out here which try to ruin people life, they are so damn lucky cause luck are always on their side. Because we who always plan the things out will always get challenged by all those unexpected problems where it will change the plan. May be it will still come out with the original result but the process are always very pathetic with a lot of different kind of booms around. Sometimes it also requires to have sacrifice in it for a further advantage for the group although the sacrifice are pure as white paper.

Who should we blame if things turned out differently, well yes it always change everything we wanted very badly but what can we do? We are just some homo-sapiens which is even smaller than a sand in the whole world and more importantly we do not even have the strength to make changes for it. Often people give up easily or get tempered with all those things blocked on their way. My question is why try to break the wall but go climb over it? Live with it so it will help you to be better.

I can only advice those who are always trying to against what faith are bringing, never try to fight it and get to know how tiny we are in the world. Just live with it, whatever come by just act like another guest and get well with it. Isn't it better to just take things happily other than making yourself suffer so much about it? By the end of your life where you always recall things you've done you will end up with a word, SAD. So start by now just take everything happily, at least you can tell people you're happy.

Till then, life is always a pathetic one.

Life As A Learning Place for All Of Us

I wasn't a very old man to talk about this but living 20 years in this pathetic world I had learn enough for at least writing it into my blog.

I notice that a lot of things that happened around us are so called useless, for example people always mentioned about the subject history which is apparently useless in our future life. Cause I think most people agree that listening to old-folk story doesn't help us a lot in life.

I believe that most people had been mislead to this point of view where we do not apply what we learn. But if you think closely and more detail, do you ever notice that what you learnt helped you when you faced situation? Whatever thing that we always learn in the class usually do have 1 motive, which is to help us enhance our brain speed of thinking.

For example, me myself can actually make decision faster than most people, whenever the situation occurs, I already know a lot of solutions for it while others are still figuring about the situations. I ain't here trying to show off but I have to admit that what I learnt in school and university and whatever incident in life do help me make a clearer decision for it. That is why I'm writing this blog to make you guys notice about how amazing life can be if you can notice about the moral of story behind it.

Furthermore, we should always be grateful for whatever that had happened and learn to put down as it don't help by keep on saying about it. We should just remember the incident as a process of learning and at the same time figure out the solutions other than showing your attitude like no body business. For first time, fuck every anger off your mind and try to maintain calm cause it will always help you to think better when you are calm.

Conclusion, life as a learning process for us to be a better person and we shall take it as an advantage other than blaming for what happened.

Life where it is always meant to be

When love comes, there are no way we can resist it,
No matter how much effort you try on other things,
You will still end up thinking about that person,
And after all you will think you are someone stupid.

When faith comes, we always do not notice about it,
No matter how much we try to control our own life,
You still end up thinking that everything are fixed,
And we will always regret for not doing good enough.

When time comes, we always can't resist of what it brought,
No matter how much thing we do for all those time that passed,
You still end up thinking how short it was and pathetic,
And we always think that it's so freaking not enough.

When it's time that everything are set and you're meant to learn about life, there are no way you can avoid it. So why don't we stay calm for it as well as stay relax for everything we wanted so at least by the end of everything we could at least tell ourselves we had achieved it in life and never regret for whatever had happened. Till then, life is just everything full of love and life is something we should live it meaningfully.

Missing You

I fall asleep with tears burning in my eyes,
I love you so much, and somtimes
I mistake truths for lies.

I've been hurt before, and your faith I must learn to trust
I should have realised by now
You are not one to give into lust.

I sit here on the couch
The yearbook in my hands
As I smile and frown at the photos
Listening to love songs from my favorite bands.

The summer will be long
My longing is nothing new.
And everyday I'm haunted
By the fact that I miss you.

Life full of love but problems

Well, one and hqpf month semester break and finally it will come to an end. If you ask me if i enjoyed it, of course i do, but then i just felt that it should have been longer. As usual my mum has strunggle and mumble lots of times to ask me get a job.

Ouch, i have plenty of time or maybe half of my life wasted on study, please just let me rest while i can before i kill myself because of those stress. Erm.. Any other thing i can said other than i cant be able to obtain job? More or less at least i'm living up to your expectAtion right?

Well nothing to be said other than i'm freakin mad while people is giving me stress, another stress where the university people are so selfish when they no longer need me around, the basically just call me when they face problems. Sweat, don you really have brains as people always said? Fuck it while you should always try your effort when you already get the post. And nOt by showing of your post but do not even have any cOntribution while you are needed.

Till then that i'm too kind tO offer helps when it come to such sotuation. So i stand no chance on complaining..

Friends Come and GO

When you come around, then I will go around.

Friends are always meant for our life, but it is only there for us to complete each other but they wouldn't be able for us for the whole life. Friends are something come and go, no matter how hard you try to maintain it, it will still come to an end one day. May be tomorrow, next year, or next 10 years.

No one ever notice how pathetic to have friends. It is true sometimes we could have true friendship but what if one of us have to move to somewhere far, will us still put in good enough commitment? I don't think so. As I have said earlier, friends come and go. I personally have a lot of friends in my life and some of it had make it to the level of good friend. But then i noticed this pathetic situation where it is so hard to maintain the friendship when we are seperate apart.

In this era, phone and internet connection has been a very easy tool for us to communicate among each other, which is also a Con to us where we still feel the blankness in us where they are not around us although we get to chat everyday. No matter what, friend are only meant for life but not meant to be there the whole life. I'm glad I have finally make sense on this point on my own because I will try not to fall for it so much. It is really a deep pain in the heart where the seperation make.

I myself, a very socialable person who have plenty of friends around, and too get some good friends, but then when we further on and do not have time to spent around like old days, i feel the crack of relationship within us. I cried, feel sad, lifelessly go through my life praying for better situation but till end i notice it wouldn't help at all. The only thing we can do towards those friends who we couldn't stay like before is to pray for their wealthness and as well as their successfulness in the future.

Till then, a pathetic story of Love and Life.

A Person

There is this person where I knew for a month..
We met through facebook..
A friend of my friend..
We had our first outing to curve..
We fell in love..
We have different personalities and background..
I love this person more than anyone I had..

But I don't know why I asked for break up..
Is it because I would be happy for it end up like this..
Or I do not want changes that make that person indifferent..
I Love that perosn truly..
I know..
Deep inside my heart..
Because it has been 2 months..
I still think of that person frequently..
I try to make it a pass..
But I always remembered our first kiss..
Where I bleed..
And it take years for me to forget..
I think..
It's not important anymore..
Because that person moved on..
I tried to..
Never have someone like this person appears..
Sometimes God has given the right person but..
Do we know how to appreciate it..

Praying That..

The minute I heared my first love story
I started looking for you
Not knowing how blind that was
Lovers don't finally meet somewhere
They're in each other all along
We don't always find the one we carry inside us
But LOVE is kind
HE give us second chances
I found mine
I hope you found yours too

One Day You Will Regret And You Will Realise That I Really Love You

Why Leave Me?

Why leave me?
Day by day, I cried.
Hours by hours, I misses.
Minutes by minutes, I remember.
Seconds by seconds, I owned.

Why leave me?
When we met, you were nice.
When we together, you were awesome.
When we message, my heart pumps faster.
When we hang-out, you frozen my heart.

Why leave me?
To North, I didn't do anything wrong.
To South, I make my best on everything.
To East, I swear myself to make this relationship work.
To West, I've put my heart fully to you.

Why leave me?
Break up, I felt the pain.
Break up, you told me to move on.
Break up, I cried almost all days.
Break up, you already have someone for you.

Why leave me?
To you, it may be means nothing.
To me, it conclude everything.
To world, it may be just tiny little problem.
To me, the worlds falls and I still want you.

Why leave me?
You said you love me, I felt it when I was with you.
You said you love me, I felt it when i kisses you.
You said you love me, why you can just go away that easy?
You said you love me, is it fake when you put me down so easy?

Why leave me?
By Monday and Tuesday, I kept myself busy to aside you in my head.
By Wednesday and Thursday, I east myself not to cry anymore for you.
By Friday, I acted normal and went out with friends to full-fill time.
By Weekend, I was a free-lane caller for anyone so my soul was full-filled.

Why leave me?
To you, I'm putting hopes.
To me, I'm giving up hopes.
To A.I, I'd hope you live happily. (A.I= All Inspection)
To E.G, I'd hope you end your life. (E.G=Enough Guiltiness)

WAIT

 
Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;
Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate . . .
And the Master so gently said, "Wait."


"Wait? you say wait?" my indignant reply.
"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By faith I have asked, and I'm claiming your Word.


"My future and all to which I relate
Hangs in the balance, and you tell me to wait?
I'm needing a 'yes', a go-ahead sign,
Or even a 'no' to which I can resign.


"You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe,
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
And Lord I've been asking, and this is my cry:
I'm weary of asking! I need a reply."


Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate,
As my Master replied again, "Wait."
So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,
And grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting for what?"


He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine . . .
and He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.


"I could give all you seek and pleased you would be.
You'd have what you want, but you wouldn't know Me.
You'd not know the depth of my love for each saint.
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint.


"You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair;
You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there.
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me
When darkness and silence are all you can see.


"You'd never experience the fullness of love
When the peace of My spirit descends like a dove.
You would know that I give, and I save, for a start,
But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart.


"The glow of my comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight.
The depth that's beyond getting just what you ask
From an infinite God who makes what you have last.


"You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.
Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true,
But, oh, the loss, if you missed what I'm doing in you.


"So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see
That the greatest of gifts is to truly know me.
And though oft My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still . . . WAIT."

I Will Wait Forever

You say there’s nothing I can do


You say that friends is all we’ll ever be


But HEI, if you just take my hand


And trust in me


I will take you to a faraway place


Somewhere you’ve never been


I will wait forever.


And if that day never comes


My life will not be a waste


Because I can say


That I waited all my life



FOR THE ONE I LOVE

LIFE MOVES ON

A starry expanse above
The deep, vast sea below
And in between
Life moves on

People come and go
A baby is born
The unfortunate and old die
Life moves on

Every passing day
We are flying
In space, and still
Life moves on

Loves around assist
We fall in it
Together and seperated
Life moves on

What we do today
is tomorrow's history

Do we remember it?

Or LIFE MOVES ON?

When LOVE

When Love arrived

No matter who you are

There are no defence against it

When it attack you deep enough

You will feel things are never the same

When experience Love

Everything become sweeter than honey

Every issue solved automatically

Your heart just follow what he/she wants

To make him/her thinks that you are the best

When Argues happen

Emotional over took you

What ever happen never important

You will always wonder the same

Why he/she don't understand you

When Time come

It's time to said goodbye

Although both party do not want it

But too Ego to speak it out

Or too scare to face problems again

When Love subsided

The feelings are always there

Deep in each other heart

But then never know how to subside it

Until eternity where LIFE END WITH REGRET

Nice Guys

Nice guys finish last
That's why I treat you like trash
It's not what I really wanna do
But you only date bad guys
So I'll give it my best
Try to treat you the way you want me to

I never open a door or pull out a chair
You could tell me how your day was but I don't really care
And if you ever get cold you will just have to hack it
Cause I'd be cold too if I give you my jacket
And I'm like WHOA

You ain't sitting up front, the front is for the homies
You can sit in the trunk.
I never answer my phone whenever you call it and
When the waiter brings the phone I never reach for my wallet

Nice guys finish last
That's why I treat you like trash
It's not what I really wanna do
But you only date bad guys
So I'll give it my best
Try to treat you the way you want me to

And I'mma beat you in every competition 

Going out with the girls, you better get my permission

Wait, NO! I take that back you can't go
House is on tonight and that's my favorite show
Girl: Do I look fat in this dress?
Boy: Hell yeah YOU do!
Wait let me speak you language
Cows go moo.. moo~ moo~ MOO~

Nice guys finish last
That's why I treat you like trash
It's not what I really wanna do
But you only date bad guys
So I'll give it my best
Try to treat you the way you want me to

But behind the seeds she means the world to me
I wanna tell her that she's beautiful and show her that she's my world
And when she's scared tell her how much I care
But that won't win her heart because....

Nice guys finish last
That's why I treat you like trash
It's not what I really wanna do
But you only date bad guys
So I'll give it my best
Try to treat you the way you want me to...

LOVING and GETTING HURT

Loving a person is easy.

But then getting the correct person isn't that easy as breathing and exhaling air. Love in some way shows when your can feel that person is the correct one.

I have twice true love, one by 13 and another by 20. You can said that the first is known as puppy love because everyday there aren't any other thing you do other than smugging each other. But then when life make us grow from time to time, things and view tend to change. Or you might said getting hurt from time to time make you something invulnerable for love. In another way of saying is you are so fucking hard to trust another person.

After my first so called sweet love, that person quited because of some family issues. I had been so down ever since, crying makes my days pass and of course make me so damn pissed of. I have once swear to god that I'll never trust in true love anymore. I said that I have had enough and I hate the feelings of getting hurt. That type of feeling is hurt enough as like your heart pumps faster and faster but then did not slow down cause of the hurt. The worst thing is that when you see the one you loved get hurt too, the hurt in you multiplies by 10.

God damn it, I fall again. Another time. Talking to this person makes me gain hope on the world again but our views are so far apart in some form. When we get into serious relationship, it let us feel harder as things gone complicated and argues full-filled our daily schedule most of the time. The feeling is so bad. It did changes me a lot for LOVE but then changes make a person become weirder. Sometimes I wonder if you act so damn unacceptable is much helping than you forces yourself into someone you never know at all.

May be I have had enough hurt in life, I tend to change each other to be perfect, I know no one is perfect but then I just give it a try. That person show changes but then I'm so greedy that I wanted more. At last it gives negatives effects and problems pop up more and more. I try to solve it. I'm very good in solving maths equations but not love equations. Because the different in maths and love is maths can be rub away but love is a memory based things. The more you love the more it will become part of your life.

Gosh, that feeling is killing me, I tried all the entertainment in the world, even drugs. It don't help! When I have fun this minute, the next minute the hurt still appears, and the longer it last, the more pain I suffer. Sometimes I considering suiciding but then I know it's the most foolish thing to do when you give up on something.

I pray a lot that miracles happens. I do. But then at the same time, me myself are suppose to put effort in it. But how? When I try talking to that person, false fall upon me. I don't know how to deal with it. God, please show me the way.

Hyperventilation

Stopped writing for quite some time. A lot of things happened.

Here on this post I just wishes to say about Hyperventilation of human being.

God has been so fair since we knew it, he always has his reason for those things he wanted for the world and always bare in mind that who are us to question it when we are not even a dust in this universe?

I have been so sicked of those hyperventilation people, seriously so fed up with it. Hyperventilation is actually a scientifical term that explains about a human being which breath in more air than he usually needed. I use this term on human, as the meaning, I would like to said about human which never get bored with their needs. It's true that all human being and all living creatures have their needs, but not too much. A bit of it that might satisfied ourselves should be good enough for us in life.

Being able to have needs for whatever thing in the world isn't a mistake for us, because god had make us capable of it. Sincerely saying, because of those needs, it actually worked as a motivation to most people to be success in life. Needs are something important but than people tend to ask for more, they will never satisfied. That's my point, people who have good enough condition to live usually asked for a better situation, even he had been provoted as King. I have always wonder, have those people compared themselves to the weaker when they usually compared to the better?

This hyperventilation sickness within humans has been injected ages ago, where people start to control of their life, being selfish and wanted to be ruler of everything. Can you think of when you breath, you breath more than you needed, what happened? Don't tell me you will feel better, if it is so, please consider my suggestion to end your life now before you become some kind of freak. Frankly speaking, when you are in good condition, have you ever think of helping the needs? Why do you need so much needs when you already have good enough to full-fill your own needs?

Wondering have you think of, when we are dead, where are we going to be? Hell? Heaven? Or nowhere.. no matter what answer is it, will you have all your beloved tresure with you after your life come to an end? No, fucking no, so why want to have so much needs when the time came, everyone of us are just at the same point. Does those things you get help you to get into better position in your afterlife? If you think it does, I fucking suggesting you to quit on reading this post.

If you've seen people in the world, I can surely tell you that everyone of them are selfish, including me myself. When I already get things I satisfied enough for life, I always keep myself to be better, comparing myself with those who's on top of me. But then when I look back to those poor people, I feel so sorry. It's not even their choice to be in such condition, did they try? They did! Then why they still do not get the same as us. The reason is by us. How can they get those chances where we already take away their opportunity.

In some point, people are always in some gap. Poor and Rich. Rich always become richer and poor become poorer. When you notice this, the selfish always blame the poor one not giving enough commitments in achieving life goals, but then did you ever blame yourself or think of it's may be your fault they are like that? Even when you know you did taake away their opportunity, I'm sure you do not want to give up at all. Because you're a hyperventilation person. You just want to breath more than you need.

When times come, life will show that I'm right. I believe it in some way, but then I know nowdays people wouldn't accept my point of view yet, they think I'm insane. May be I'm one but then at least I know my limits and I do not act HYPERVENTILATION.

The Special One

When I look into your eyes
your the only one I need in my life
we've been through so much together
and I feel like I've known you forever

your the only one for me
i love you more than you'd ever know or see
I get a big rush when I'm with you
& I hope you feel the way that i do

And the way you look at me
it makes me go crazy
the way you talk to me
shows me that our love is true

I'd give so much for you to just hold me
your love can completely control me
you show me your love to me and
see me from inside and out
and i feel the same way without a doubt.

Of Love and Life

Of eternal love,


Of undying desire,


The forces that drve men,


To slay, to kill, to destroy,


For the love of one.






Love etrnal, love unending,

The waves of time,

Can hold not at bay,


For love fosters desire,


For desire fosters bonds of hurt.






From heart emerges faith,


Faith for love,


Faith for good,


Faith to all life,


Faith to love.






To live and love,


To all one's might,


To love with all one's soul,


To love to the fullest,


To desire for the sake of desire.






For lack of love is one's bane,


For want of love is corrupting,






LIVE TO LOVE,


LOVE TO LIVE.






Love makes the world go around,


Love makes life worth living,


Love lightens one's burden,

Love brings life to life.

Be The Best Of Whatever You Are

If you can't be a pine on the top of the hill,


Be a scrub in the valley -- but be

The best little scrub by the side of the rill;


Be a bush if you can't be a tree.






If you can't be a bush, be a bit of the grass,


Some highway happier make;


If you can't be a muskie, then just be a bass --


But the liveliest bass in the lake!






We cab't all be captains, we've got to be crew,

There's something for all of us here,

There's big work to do, and there's lesser to do,


And the task we must do is the near.




If you can't be a hightway, then just be a trail,

If you can't be the sun, be a star;

It isn't by size that you win or fail --

BE THE BEST OF WHATEVER YOU ARE!

THE GREATEST THINGS

The best day, today.


The best play, work.


The greatest puzzle, life.


The greatest thought, God.


The greatest mystery, death.


The best work, work you like.


The greatest mistake, giving up.


The most ridiculous asset, pride.


The greatest need, common sense.


The most dangerous person, a liar.


The best town, when you succeed.


The most expensive indulgence, hate.


The greatest invention of devil, war.


The most disagreeable person, the complainer.


The greatest secret of production, saving waste.


The best teacher, one who makes you want to learn.


The biggest fool, the man who lies to himself.


The worst bankcruptcy, the soul who has lost enthusiasm.


The cheapest, easiest and most stupid thing to do, finding fault.


The cleverest man, the one who always does what he thinks is right.


The greatest bore, the one who keeps talking after he has made his point.


The greatest comfort, the knowledge that you have done your work well.


The most agreeable companion, the one would not have you any different than you are.


The meanest feeling of which any human being is capable, feeling envious of another's success.


The greatest sin, fear.


The most satisfying experience, doing your duty first.


The best action, keeping the mind clear and the judgement good.


The greatest blessing, good health.


The greatest law of nature, cause and effect.


The greatest gamble, subsituting hope for facts.


The most certain thing in life, change.


The greatest joy, being needed.


The greatest opportunity, the next one.


The greatest victory, victory over yourself.


The greatest handicap, egoism.


The greatest loss, loss of self-confidence.


The greatest waste.. all the talent and ability that most of us have but never quite get around to use.


The greatest thing in the world- LOVE, lvoe for family, home, friends, neighbours.. and for the land in which we enjoy our freedom.

wanted or not wanted

It's been quite some time i didn't write anything here. Mostly because busy preparing for exam, coaching kids for Sofbol, and part of it I've been lazy plus do not know of what to write.

Well, I've just done with my kid-coaching, they have lose it. I do not really feel sad for it as the kids aren't nice creature to be sympathy of. My point is, what for I give my emotions on some kids which do not even think on themselves and do not even know what is cooperate after living for more than 15 years. I would rather I didn't waste my time on them. But after all I'm glad they learned from their mistake.

Studies is just some unwanted course for most of us. But frankly speaking, most of us have to g through it, no matter in academies or working world. We learn for us to be better, to make a space for ourselves in this world, and to full-fill whatever wants we need to achieve. I didn't really favorite it, but then I do not really have much choice on it. Either to make myself sometime suffering on it or regret later on when I needed such skills. From this point, I bet most people having same problem too.

For being a busy man, I learned another skill. Which is to sacrifice for the better. We can know every in the world, the problem is do we have time for all of them? Sometimes when people invite me and clashed with my appointment, I would try my best to comfort both side but if can't I still have to make a choice. After such choices, I can make sure of friends which I could rely on. Trust me, some friends really just wanted advantage from you when they be with you. But some of it is just not that. They really treated you like real friends, although sometimes unhappy things happened, but then we know that they'll always be there when you need it.

Want It or Don't Want It... Make your choice wisely..

Photosynthesis

Photosynthesis is a process which convert carbon dioxide into organic compounds, using the energy from sunlight. This process usually occurs by plants, algae, and many species of bacterias but not ARCHEA.







That's the scientific explanation for photosynthesis. But do you know that in life there are things which can be known as photosynthesis too? Basically photosynthesis is about a sunject has turned into a new leaf after having some helps from another party. In life, many things are just like photosynthesis to us. There aren't anyone borned with living skills, so our parents are the first which helped us in photosynthesis process. They are the one who equip us with language, worble, walking, understanding and knowing skills. This process are always important as we usually been seen with what we were brought up from.








Second stage of photosynthesis in life is primary. Which i mean teachers in schools. Injecting knowledge towards students usually counted as reponsibilities of a tutor. Where they are the one who helped us to gain knowledge for our future life. Indirectly, when we have our interest in certain part of knowledge, for example, science, we will be in a good path and will not need to worry much for life. In another term, when we aren't well equiped with knowledge, we will be suffering and blaiming from time to time. Teachers are the important roles took part in our life, don't take them for granted.


Third stage, which usually known as the most critical stage of photosynthesis will be the friend stage. When time passes, we usually wanted more companies, and friends are usually the one we require. This critical stage is very unbalance as we are easily affected by others. We will always do things unwisely for certain accessment. For example, we will always do things, include unwell things, to gain friend and we would not like to be challenged or known as croward. Friend stand a big chances of photosynthesis. Choose your friend wisely, it's better you're the one controling them than you're controlled by them.


Last stage of photosynthesis, Love. I do not want to share about it here. Different people have different thinking and idea about this field, I do not want people to change their mind when they know it from me. Love is a free field, no one's wrong for being fall in love. I would be glad to tell you my experience personally, privately. You can always ask from me yourself. Thank You.










Title by: Brian Chin

MIRACLE!!!

A miracle is an event to divine intervention. A miracle is sometimes thought of as a perceptible interruption of the laws of nature.

Have you ever had any miracle happen around you, or have you ever heard of any miracle which happened?


Once upon a time, miracle is believed in all senses by all humans. By then, they do not have good enough understanding for the nature. Thus, everything unexplained but helped them in some sense is a miracle. Which actually build people to have better faith in god. Now days, it is not like that. People tend to have more knowledge and understanding for things around, everything has their explanation, people do not pray for miracle anymore.


Why is everything which happened to us, there is a must for it's explanation? Why human must know everything and wanted to act like god? I think it's much better if everything and everyone still stayed in the stone age where people can live freely without having prejudice among each other in the world. Things were never that complicated if people do not get good enough knowledge. Miracle does happen around us, the question is how do we accept it, in a good way or in a bad way.


Miracle is giving chance to people whenever people have their faith in it. They usually make the situation changed into the best situation where there are no worst loser. These examples happened to me as well. When I need the miracle, it sometimes came to me and lead me out of the situation. Sometimes when I was so down that I do not have any confident in certain things, miracle still did help me by giving me hope in some ways. I'm so glad with the miracle happening.


Give chance to let miracle come to you as how miracle has always give us chance.

SOPHISTICATED

May be some of you do not know about what are the main point I want to touch about sophisticate, but sometimes things are like that, people tend to do something, but it always came out that the results are different from the expectations yet still maintained at a satisfactory level. Why this situation happens? Is it a must that people couldn’t do things as their expectations? That’s why I touch about sophisticate today.

From my point of view, every person born to this world is a sophisticated person as all of us are equipped with a few different types of personal skills which aren’t shared with other individuals in the world. That particular skill helps us and makes us extraordinary which help me on explaining about sophisticate. Some people do not know about such special skill which they have, not yet may be. This skill will come to us somehow in some way in a special way by any time.

One of the very common special abilities of human, of course through my experience, I think is about verbal abilities. I have heard people said that women usually have better verbal usage than men; this is because words came from them usually having multi/triple/quad meanings in it. Which is because of this indifferent within men and women, they usually claimed that the opposite sex couldn’t understand what they trying to imply. I think that is quite a big problem as how could men can understand women when their words have different meaning than what men used or vice-versa.

Second ability that is another common ability shared by most individual is the acting abilities. When I read back on the history, I have to admit that I respect them a lot as whenever they have made their mind, they stick to it. Nowadays people do not have such faith in their selves, most of time, they do not do as they told or lies covering lies action. Most of the time, everyone of us is the best actor when we try to lie about something, or even show them our real personalities, but people still think we are the good guy or doing things because forced. What a pathetic world.

Third ability I will tell you my ability. I have discovered it lately, but I do not see it commonly. May be it is not common, or it is too special, or people do not want people know that they can do it. My ability is I can feel other people feelings, no matter how they try to cover it, no matter how much acting skills they used, I still can feel it, and most of the time I was correct. Whenever a person is not happy, I can feel it, and I will try to ask them about it. Don’t ever think this ability is nice, all the people like to have their privacy stayed by themselves, and they do not like it when people read their heart like a book. This actually causes problems for me when I try to communicate further with people.

After I gave a few examples, do you discover that you have some special abilities by yourself too? May be yes, may be no. If no please do not feel down, I believe that one day you will discover it, or you may already has it, just that you do not know it is.

How to LIVE!!!!

Dulu Kita Satu Jiwa, Satu Impian.

(We Once Shared A Soul, Sharing The Same Dream)

Susah dan Senang Kita Bersama.

(Sticked Together No Matter Anything Happened)

Namun, Itu Semua, Hanya Sementara

(However, All That Lasted Only For Awhile)

Life is like a roller coaster which planted with lots of up and down, sometimes there are even path spinning upside down, making people feel the fear of it. Many things in the world, where we do not see much, yet it happen around us. We are lucky that most of us were raised under protected, planned environment by our parents. We start to think that life wasn't that complicated after all.

Life, as usual, we should learn ourselves to get a living in it. Being successful in this global aren't just being good in things, but communications among people too are important. God created people around the world for a reason. We should make good relationships with them. Interpersonal communications are usually defined  by communication scholar in numerous ways, usually describing participants who are dependent upon one another and have a shared history.

First and forever true fact about relationship among humans are about friends. Everyone of us have friends. Doesn't mean that he/she is nice to you that they are your friend. We are saying about good friends, trusted friends!!! Trough my experience, the friend who are nice to you always, who stayed with you all the time, 78.6% they are the one who be-trait you. In another hand, the one you hated, which irritated you, which wanted your attentions on them, they might be your true friends. In the end, I bet most of us have a good friend but once we never expected they are the ones. 

Second relationship is about Love. The one which you think may be the one who stayed with you all the time, who listens to you all time, supports you no matter what happened. This one person, trust me, it's not only one, God knows us well, all of us are greedy, that's why he gave us a few choices. No matter which one we choose, we should stay our faith by them. Cause whenever you do not trust a person, they will not give their faith to you too. The law of nature has shown us that people are tested with a lot of consequences  before they can achieve their goal.


The above two are most concerned subjects by people. So whichever you think you are weak at, from now on (not tomorrow, not later, BUT NOW) , please enhance yourself with it. Please do not give reasons, cause everything are set by God, but we are the one who choose the path ourselves, so do not blame anyone for what had happened.  

Life Sux!

No matter up or down, it's still a continuous process as time will not wait for anyone in the world. Not unless you can time stop and time traveled like the show HEROES.

My advice to take everything no matter up or down with full hearted because sometimes the chance to show you certain situations are only once in a life time. So please get yourself prepared for the unpredicted but unique situations.

Most of the time, simple advice will be remembered. So I let you all think about it yourself.

Friends

All our experience with history should teach us, when we look back, how badly human wisdom is betrayed when it relies on itself


No matter where we are, no matter how successful we are, we are still learning. There are one thing that we learned from time to time. Which is to make friends. Pathetic but true indeed. Friends are everything other than our own family, because they are the one who supported us in all ways.


A friend isn't hard to get, but if you wanted a good friend, it would have to see how you performed. Most of the time, being friends with some other people is just easy, but the circumstances come after it just not as easy as you though. Friends are meant to be betrayed and being used. Usually most people will said that.


I'm telling you that you are wrong, no matter how your friend betrayed you, the biggest damage are still towards himself. Being in an relationship among friends is not as easy as 2+2. It is more like add maths, function where you need to substitute different kind of equation is different kind of situation. So whenever someone try to ruined the law of nature, he or she will get the pain himself.


Friends are not easy to get. But doesn't mean you have to guard up yourself towards everyone. Enjoying and understanding different kind of personalities among humans is a very interesting topic we can enjoy in life, where i believe everyone liked it. But as I said, people changed their mind every milliseconds. Having some self defense is just a proper way to live.

The Day We Birth

How do you expect me to remember your birthday, when you never look any older?


I love the quote above. Sweet. Haha.




Seems like everyone just think that birthday is a big day. I do not know if I like birthdays, but I know it's just my responsibilities to remember my friend's birthday and celebrate it with them. The main purpose of this is to let your friend know that you still remember them in some way.




Well, that was the past. Now days, with the helps of FaceBook and more than 87.5% people around global owned an account of it, it's not actually hard to memories their birthday after all. Although a wall post of wishing seems cool, but isn't calling or messaging the person seems more caring?




Another point of view from me about birthday, birthday aren't suppose to be a celebration and happy day but a day for us to remember about the pain of the one who give birth to us. Having a baby needs more than 32 weeks in a woman and needs good effort to birth it. Aren't we suppose to be thankful to them who suffer for these but not having celebration on that day.




But after all, if I keep my view on myself, I will seriously be known as the weird one. Surviving in this world basically is not about how special you are and how you live with it, but how convincing you are. When you have a point on your own, and you can get some people to stay their faith with it, then congratulations for showing your extraordinary living skills.




After all, birthdays are meant to celebrate, in my world. So I celebrated it.




The END of the story.

Trust=No Trust

Well, another day go on. It happened that I'm the bad guy.

Sometimes I'm a good listener, most of the time. But may be my mouth just ain't good enough. I am the guy who understand others but too kind. I listen to others but at the same time when I feel not right about it, I will try to warn others. That actually change the good guy status of myself.

Very Sarcastic right, that's the real world. Where misunderstanding happens all around.  Whenever people begin to misunderstood each other, that's where the trust become less. From my point of view, NEVER EXPLAIN is the best solution. People tend to think differently whenever we try to explain. More conflict will be shown when you explain.

But being a silence-person when you're discovered as back-stab-er doesn't mean you can run away with things. People just have good memories whenever they having misunderstand. All the old-times-folk story came out, blaming each other, shouting out of their throat trying to show how nice are they.

All of that are just bull-shit. In my previous post, I had mentioned that things happened with because of everyone. I mean EVERYONE!!! No matter what, humans are creature who are selfish in some way. For example, when a picture of group photos came out, which part of the photo you will look at? Obviously is yourself. So don't bull-shit that you aren't selfish person.

Although I said never explain is best solution, but the word SORRY still needed in some way. Just a simple apologize without any explanation will show people how sincere you are. At the same time, it shows that you care about them.

Being human aren't as easy as you think, communicating skills are important in all kind of situation. So LIVE with it.

Life Which Make Us Confuse!

There are different type of people all around the world. Kind, Nice, Bad, Fake, Happy, Sad, Confusing, Sophisticated and much much more. We will not really know about what people think or what are they really up to, we just know that as long as their existence help us in our life, we have to live with it.


Among all type of people, the type of people I seriously do not like is the Drama King type. I'm sure a lot of people have heard of Drama Queen where a person who is totally making faces all around. Allow me to explain about what is Drama King. Drama King is a person who liked to come out with reasons, lying here and there, twisting other people words into another story.


The main reason this kind of people performing such attitude mainly are selfish and doing it for the fun of theirs. These people do not fucking care about other people, what they care is just about their life. I do not favorite such people as they are really irritating in some way. Most of them are full of egoistic where us as friends wanted to advice but seems like fool to them.


There is once I get into such personalities people. Where he seems so nice at the starting, smiling all the time, innocent yet filled with knowledge. After some time, he becoming weirder and weirder. He is always covering his mistakes with lies, one after another, bigger lies after it. But he acted normal, where he thinks that everyone trust them. In his eyes, he always think that he is the special one. To me, I think he is just like other normal people.


I tried talking to him, but he seems ignoring. Days by days, the one who are friends with him started to avoid him. He still act like nothing happened. I feel sad for him, wanted to advice him on it, he just keep quiet after it but repeating the same after it. I felt so tired being friends with such person where he do not even care about people who cares about him. He just think he is the best.


Hereby, I prayed for him if someone can stand him and take him as friend in the future.

SAD SAD DAY

Kau tersenyum manja
Menyatakan hasrat kepadaku
Kau kata kau cinta
Cinta pertama kepadaku

Ku hampir tergoda
Bergelora dalam kalbu
Kau bukan untukku
Kau dan aku tak mungkin berpadu

1
Nun di sana
Beri beribu batu
Kau kutinggalkan bersama hatimu

Nun di sana
Kau meratap pilu
Satu masa nanti
Kau akan mengerti
Apa maksudku

Kini kau menanti
Harapanmu abadi terhadapku
Kau coretkan lagi
Rahsia hatimu kepadaku

Ku doakan dikau
Bertemu seorang teman sejati
Yang satu aliran
Satu kepercayaan
Aduhai Kathy

EPILOG CINTA DARI  BROMLEY

I do not have much to said on this post. Please just try to understand the meaning of the song and may be you will know what happened. This song had reflected about what i felt. I know it's random but it's true.

I have think of it about life, may be some of you may have the same feeling as me, what life is meant for? Why are we living in this world if we are meant to die after all. Our life is just doing something in this global then may be after all no one will remember our existence.

Until today I still do not have an answer for that question. What I know is, I'm still alive today and did not suicide. So I think you guys should live with it too. 

One In A Million

You won’t win if you don’t begin




Believe that everyone of us is a special, outstanding, extraordinary creature among all others is actually what we should keep it in our mind. Basically, even a loser is counted as a winner. Mainly because we were already a winner while we still a sperm finding for ovum. If we did not win the others, will you be reading this instead? 




I would like to said about One In A Million. Would you ever think that, every thing that happened around you, you may be involved in a very tiny way although you do not do anything? What I wanted to said is, without you being around there, the situation might be totally different. For example, an argument just started seconds ago, although you aren't people who is arguing, but may be they just so happen to hate you and become inpatient.




You would actually ask me why my blogs was full of undetermined contents, where I always write things which is both sided and always leave a question behind every of it. But do you know that because I'm also a One In A Million? Not only me, you as well, every creature as well, may be as tiny as bacteria is special enough. 




The question is, will you try to convince yourself that you are One In A Million as well? Once people had always said that "The biggest enemy is yourself", I totally agree with it. When I can convince myself, who give a damn into other people or things in the world. So please start to convince yourself that you are a very special creature indeed. It's actually a way to raise personal confident too.




Believing in own self actually does help most individual. Trusting in friend is not a wise choice. Some friends you may be with him a decade, who knows what he thinking? He may be the one who back stab you all awhile. To me, I think most friend are "Frien-nemy", they mostly make use of you when they think needed but put you aside when don't.


Think about it. ONE IN A MILLION, you are the one. Stay with it. Live with it. 




MAKE A LIFE WITH IT

Life=Surprise!!!

My definition for life, it is same as surprise.




If we think about it, is it every second of our life are full of surprises? Where we couldn't do anything as we wish. Whenever we try to plan for something, surely there are unwanted things happened. That's why there are always "plan B" in the world... or may be plan C, D, E, F........




Sometimes, I'm thinking about the word "Luck" and "Faith". Many people will said that both of it are the same. I will tell you something, if you said it is the same, you're meant to be in standard one classroom by now!!!!




According to the wikipedia, luck is good or bad fortune in life by chances. But I'm telling you here there are such thing as luck. For whatever thing that happened to us, it is only our faith, that god has given to us. For what ever that happened, it is our CHOICES!!! Think about it, whenever we think that something happened were luck, but try to review it, if you do not so happen to pick such choices, will it happen to you?




On another hand, faith is something where it is meant to be given by god to us, but please do not take it for granted. It means whenever something bad that happened, please do not said "it's jsut not my luck" or "what a bad day". If you said so, I'm advicing you to bang your head to the wall, because you're blaming the god for giving you such faith. Do you ever think of, it is we ourselves who make the choices?




For example, when we lost our money while walking on the street, I'm sure most people will said it is bad luck. Hei, have you ever think if we do not choose to go out, staying at home, will our money lost? Everything that happened is our choice, please do not make LUCK a reason for you to feel better. For that, I think it's best you're known as a "BANGAU" (STORK) !!!




Please try to listen to the video's lyrics.

Life Goes ON!!!!!

Good Day People

Cut out all the uneeded greed.

Day by day passed by, the walking puppet just feel so bored, life being controlled by an inner part of myself which do not actually know about what had happened. What I remember was, I meet people, smiled like a crown or more likely a robotic-smile lived in me. What I learned in class never matters, I occasionally attended for the class, stayed in it, listened to it, but none of it become part of my memory.

My mum actually has her own version of ragging on someone. Which normal creatures will feel like tearing her off but the fact is, I ain't normal people. Living with someone who is extraordinary makes me not normal after all. My best way to face my mum is my best 3 words, "EM" , "AH" , "OH"!!! Whenever she tries to get to you, just use any of the world, but please remember not to repeat it too frequently. Plus some nodding, settled.

My dad wasn't a person with words but when he wants to, trust me, it sucks. I still remember when I reached my puberty and he tries to tell me his grandma story about sex, it hurts till now. In another hand, may be guy understand guy more, he actually tried to act like he do not care about it, but he does get into my room finding for evidence explaining what happened. Gosh! Dad, I've lived in the house for more than 70,000 days, like hell I do not know about your so called smart-trick. Doesn't mean you had more salt in your tummy means you're smarter. Thanks.

My friends too try to get me out of the puppet-form. Some know and some doesn't know. Yes, I know you guys care about me, I feel glad for that. When these situations come, there are always pro and cons. Either to tell you or not, it's my choice, please stop bugging me on it. If I tell you, I would have to go through the being-hurt stage again. It means may be some tears and anger involved. On another hand, if you don't ask me, so sorry for your curiousness to be unfilled. After all, it's none of my business.

It's a cruel world, that's everything!

A rude nature is worse than a brute nature by so much more as man is better than a beast: and those that are of civil natures and genteel dispositions are as much nearer to celestial creatures as those that are rude and cruel are to devils.

I love you more every day,
My name I long for you to say.
Do you know just how I feel?
Do you know this love is real?
Sometimes I wonder what you think.
When you hear my name, do your cheeks turn pink?
Do you dream about me every night?
Wish to hug me and hold me tight?
Do you think we're meant to be?
Together forever, you and me?
These are the questions that run through my mind,
Your way into my heart, you did find.
It drives me crazy as to what I should do,
Should I risk a friendship and confess to you?
Or should I keep my feelings inside,
Keep them locked up, let them hide?
I just don't know what to do anymore,
My heart it aches, my heart it's sore.
I love you more than you could know,
And I don't want to ever let you go.
So even if I'm just a friend,
I'll always love you until the end. 














Life wasn't that perfect after all. I was hurt. In a sense or more like in some kind of disgrace towards myself. Time has to pass on, my mind still remained on the same spot where my heart was broken into pieces. I'm more like a walking puppet if you ask me. I have tried very hard to overcome it but whenever I try to move on, my mind just can't stop thinking about what happened.

It was quite a stupid question when you ask me what happen. If you do not know about it yet, please don't ever mention you are my friend. Because a friend in need is a friend in deed. If you don't know, I don't mind. But please, PLEASE shut your mouth, knowing that mentioning about it only will make me feel more angry, sad or whatever you can think of.


I still couldn't think about it in a clear mind. What I know is I'm still trying to avoid myself by facing it. Thanks to a few friends where helped me by loafing with me for pass few days. Although they do not know about what happened, but they are there, that's enough to stop me from suiciding. At least, I know that there are still people for me and I know that I have someone to live for.

Even after a decade, I will not easily forget what happened, never. NEVER!!!! NEVER!!!!!!!!! Unless you have someone who can help me to forget it under my unwillingness condition.

I know life just have to go on. I hope I will be okay soon. 








the day we lose our need for dreams is the day the human race forfeits its soul