I love you more every day,
My name I long for you to say.
Do you know just how I feel?
Do you know this love is real?
Sometimes I wonder what you think.
When you hear my name, do your cheeks turn pink?
Do you dream about me every night?
Wish to hug me and hold me tight?
Do you think we're meant to be?
Together forever, you and me?
These are the questions that run through my mind,
Your way into my heart, you did find.
It drives me crazy as to what I should do,
Should I risk a friendship and confess to you?
Or should I keep my feelings inside,
Keep them locked up, let them hide?
I just don't know what to do anymore,
My heart it aches, my heart it's sore.
I love you more than you could know,
And I don't want to ever let you go.
So even if I'm just a friend,
I'll always love you until the end. 














Life wasn't that perfect after all. I was hurt. In a sense or more like in some kind of disgrace towards myself. Time has to pass on, my mind still remained on the same spot where my heart was broken into pieces. I'm more like a walking puppet if you ask me. I have tried very hard to overcome it but whenever I try to move on, my mind just can't stop thinking about what happened.

It was quite a stupid question when you ask me what happen. If you do not know about it yet, please don't ever mention you are my friend. Because a friend in need is a friend in deed. If you don't know, I don't mind. But please, PLEASE shut your mouth, knowing that mentioning about it only will make me feel more angry, sad or whatever you can think of.


I still couldn't think about it in a clear mind. What I know is I'm still trying to avoid myself by facing it. Thanks to a few friends where helped me by loafing with me for pass few days. Although they do not know about what happened, but they are there, that's enough to stop me from suiciding. At least, I know that there are still people for me and I know that I have someone to live for.

Even after a decade, I will not easily forget what happened, never. NEVER!!!! NEVER!!!!!!!!! Unless you have someone who can help me to forget it under my unwillingness condition.

I know life just have to go on. I hope I will be okay soon. 








the day we lose our need for dreams is the day the human race forfeits its soul