SAD SAD DAY

Kau tersenyum manja
Menyatakan hasrat kepadaku
Kau kata kau cinta
Cinta pertama kepadaku

Ku hampir tergoda
Bergelora dalam kalbu
Kau bukan untukku
Kau dan aku tak mungkin berpadu

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Nun di sana
Beri beribu batu
Kau kutinggalkan bersama hatimu

Nun di sana
Kau meratap pilu
Satu masa nanti
Kau akan mengerti
Apa maksudku

Kini kau menanti
Harapanmu abadi terhadapku
Kau coretkan lagi
Rahsia hatimu kepadaku

Ku doakan dikau
Bertemu seorang teman sejati
Yang satu aliran
Satu kepercayaan
Aduhai Kathy

EPILOG CINTA DARI  BROMLEY

I do not have much to said on this post. Please just try to understand the meaning of the song and may be you will know what happened. This song had reflected about what i felt. I know it's random but it's true.

I have think of it about life, may be some of you may have the same feeling as me, what life is meant for? Why are we living in this world if we are meant to die after all. Our life is just doing something in this global then may be after all no one will remember our existence.

Until today I still do not have an answer for that question. What I know is, I'm still alive today and did not suicide. So I think you guys should live with it too. 

One In A Million

You won’t win if you don’t begin




Believe that everyone of us is a special, outstanding, extraordinary creature among all others is actually what we should keep it in our mind. Basically, even a loser is counted as a winner. Mainly because we were already a winner while we still a sperm finding for ovum. If we did not win the others, will you be reading this instead? 




I would like to said about One In A Million. Would you ever think that, every thing that happened around you, you may be involved in a very tiny way although you do not do anything? What I wanted to said is, without you being around there, the situation might be totally different. For example, an argument just started seconds ago, although you aren't people who is arguing, but may be they just so happen to hate you and become inpatient.




You would actually ask me why my blogs was full of undetermined contents, where I always write things which is both sided and always leave a question behind every of it. But do you know that because I'm also a One In A Million? Not only me, you as well, every creature as well, may be as tiny as bacteria is special enough. 




The question is, will you try to convince yourself that you are One In A Million as well? Once people had always said that "The biggest enemy is yourself", I totally agree with it. When I can convince myself, who give a damn into other people or things in the world. So please start to convince yourself that you are a very special creature indeed. It's actually a way to raise personal confident too.




Believing in own self actually does help most individual. Trusting in friend is not a wise choice. Some friends you may be with him a decade, who knows what he thinking? He may be the one who back stab you all awhile. To me, I think most friend are "Frien-nemy", they mostly make use of you when they think needed but put you aside when don't.


Think about it. ONE IN A MILLION, you are the one. Stay with it. Live with it. 




MAKE A LIFE WITH IT

Life=Surprise!!!

My definition for life, it is same as surprise.




If we think about it, is it every second of our life are full of surprises? Where we couldn't do anything as we wish. Whenever we try to plan for something, surely there are unwanted things happened. That's why there are always "plan B" in the world... or may be plan C, D, E, F........




Sometimes, I'm thinking about the word "Luck" and "Faith". Many people will said that both of it are the same. I will tell you something, if you said it is the same, you're meant to be in standard one classroom by now!!!!




According to the wikipedia, luck is good or bad fortune in life by chances. But I'm telling you here there are such thing as luck. For whatever thing that happened to us, it is only our faith, that god has given to us. For what ever that happened, it is our CHOICES!!! Think about it, whenever we think that something happened were luck, but try to review it, if you do not so happen to pick such choices, will it happen to you?




On another hand, faith is something where it is meant to be given by god to us, but please do not take it for granted. It means whenever something bad that happened, please do not said "it's jsut not my luck" or "what a bad day". If you said so, I'm advicing you to bang your head to the wall, because you're blaming the god for giving you such faith. Do you ever think of, it is we ourselves who make the choices?




For example, when we lost our money while walking on the street, I'm sure most people will said it is bad luck. Hei, have you ever think if we do not choose to go out, staying at home, will our money lost? Everything that happened is our choice, please do not make LUCK a reason for you to feel better. For that, I think it's best you're known as a "BANGAU" (STORK) !!!




Please try to listen to the video's lyrics.

Life Goes ON!!!!!

Good Day People

Cut out all the uneeded greed.

Day by day passed by, the walking puppet just feel so bored, life being controlled by an inner part of myself which do not actually know about what had happened. What I remember was, I meet people, smiled like a crown or more likely a robotic-smile lived in me. What I learned in class never matters, I occasionally attended for the class, stayed in it, listened to it, but none of it become part of my memory.

My mum actually has her own version of ragging on someone. Which normal creatures will feel like tearing her off but the fact is, I ain't normal people. Living with someone who is extraordinary makes me not normal after all. My best way to face my mum is my best 3 words, "EM" , "AH" , "OH"!!! Whenever she tries to get to you, just use any of the world, but please remember not to repeat it too frequently. Plus some nodding, settled.

My dad wasn't a person with words but when he wants to, trust me, it sucks. I still remember when I reached my puberty and he tries to tell me his grandma story about sex, it hurts till now. In another hand, may be guy understand guy more, he actually tried to act like he do not care about it, but he does get into my room finding for evidence explaining what happened. Gosh! Dad, I've lived in the house for more than 70,000 days, like hell I do not know about your so called smart-trick. Doesn't mean you had more salt in your tummy means you're smarter. Thanks.

My friends too try to get me out of the puppet-form. Some know and some doesn't know. Yes, I know you guys care about me, I feel glad for that. When these situations come, there are always pro and cons. Either to tell you or not, it's my choice, please stop bugging me on it. If I tell you, I would have to go through the being-hurt stage again. It means may be some tears and anger involved. On another hand, if you don't ask me, so sorry for your curiousness to be unfilled. After all, it's none of my business.

It's a cruel world, that's everything!

A rude nature is worse than a brute nature by so much more as man is better than a beast: and those that are of civil natures and genteel dispositions are as much nearer to celestial creatures as those that are rude and cruel are to devils.

I love you more every day,
My name I long for you to say.
Do you know just how I feel?
Do you know this love is real?
Sometimes I wonder what you think.
When you hear my name, do your cheeks turn pink?
Do you dream about me every night?
Wish to hug me and hold me tight?
Do you think we're meant to be?
Together forever, you and me?
These are the questions that run through my mind,
Your way into my heart, you did find.
It drives me crazy as to what I should do,
Should I risk a friendship and confess to you?
Or should I keep my feelings inside,
Keep them locked up, let them hide?
I just don't know what to do anymore,
My heart it aches, my heart it's sore.
I love you more than you could know,
And I don't want to ever let you go.
So even if I'm just a friend,
I'll always love you until the end. 














Life wasn't that perfect after all. I was hurt. In a sense or more like in some kind of disgrace towards myself. Time has to pass on, my mind still remained on the same spot where my heart was broken into pieces. I'm more like a walking puppet if you ask me. I have tried very hard to overcome it but whenever I try to move on, my mind just can't stop thinking about what happened.

It was quite a stupid question when you ask me what happen. If you do not know about it yet, please don't ever mention you are my friend. Because a friend in need is a friend in deed. If you don't know, I don't mind. But please, PLEASE shut your mouth, knowing that mentioning about it only will make me feel more angry, sad or whatever you can think of.


I still couldn't think about it in a clear mind. What I know is I'm still trying to avoid myself by facing it. Thanks to a few friends where helped me by loafing with me for pass few days. Although they do not know about what happened, but they are there, that's enough to stop me from suiciding. At least, I know that there are still people for me and I know that I have someone to live for.

Even after a decade, I will not easily forget what happened, never. NEVER!!!! NEVER!!!!!!!!! Unless you have someone who can help me to forget it under my unwillingness condition.

I know life just have to go on. I hope I will be okay soon. 








the day we lose our need for dreams is the day the human race forfeits its soul

Y din i upload?

Well... Bz Month, i think Ix crazy coz they actually can be stalled into d MPH (Mental Problem Hospital) coz they actually baing dam abnormal after knowing d news to perform on Malam Bakat.

IX's members decided to perform, so...
Practice lo... wat to do... always also bz bout practice....

Well, i would not be so dam angry if there r onli problems bout practice, but d form 6 nomination and bla bla bla problems keep on pooping out, gosh, i gonna b mental distracted.

3 more days is d performance day, i think its time for me to leave IX, forever, for my studies....

Y din i upload?

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