I love you more every day,
My name I long for you to say.
Do you know just how I feel?
Do you know this love is real?
Sometimes I wonder what you think.
When you hear my name, do your cheeks turn pink?
Do you dream about me every night?
Wish to hug me and hold me tight?
Do you think we're meant to be?
Together forever, you and me?
These are the questions that run through my mind,
Your way into my heart, you did find.
It drives me crazy as to what I should do,
Should I risk a friendship and confess to you?
Or should I keep my feelings inside,
Keep them locked up, let them hide?
I just don't know what to do anymore,
My heart it aches, my heart it's sore.
I love you more than you could know,
And I don't want to ever let you go.
So even if I'm just a friend,
I'll always love you until the end. 














Life wasn't that perfect after all. I was hurt. In a sense or more like in some kind of disgrace towards myself. Time has to pass on, my mind still remained on the same spot where my heart was broken into pieces. I'm more like a walking puppet if you ask me. I have tried very hard to overcome it but whenever I try to move on, my mind just can't stop thinking about what happened.

It was quite a stupid question when you ask me what happen. If you do not know about it yet, please don't ever mention you are my friend. Because a friend in need is a friend in deed. If you don't know, I don't mind. But please, PLEASE shut your mouth, knowing that mentioning about it only will make me feel more angry, sad or whatever you can think of.


I still couldn't think about it in a clear mind. What I know is I'm still trying to avoid myself by facing it. Thanks to a few friends where helped me by loafing with me for pass few days. Although they do not know about what happened, but they are there, that's enough to stop me from suiciding. At least, I know that there are still people for me and I know that I have someone to live for.

Even after a decade, I will not easily forget what happened, never. NEVER!!!! NEVER!!!!!!!!! Unless you have someone who can help me to forget it under my unwillingness condition.

I know life just have to go on. I hope I will be okay soon. 








the day we lose our need for dreams is the day the human race forfeits its soul

Y din i upload?

Well... Bz Month, i think Ix crazy coz they actually can be stalled into d MPH (Mental Problem Hospital) coz they actually baing dam abnormal after knowing d news to perform on Malam Bakat.

IX's members decided to perform, so...
Practice lo... wat to do... always also bz bout practice....

Well, i would not be so dam angry if there r onli problems bout practice, but d form 6 nomination and bla bla bla problems keep on pooping out, gosh, i gonna b mental distracted.

3 more days is d performance day, i think its time for me to leave IX, forever, for my studies....

Y din i upload?

d?

Another bz month. I kinda make the amazing race successful althought there r a few probs came out. Well, i deserve a thx from teacher and Julian Theseira.

Exam starts tmmr, i seriously fighted for it. Coz of tis exam, i did not attend to schol for 3 days and lock myself study in my room. Err... Kinda crazy rite?

Even thought there r more than 1k pages of syllibus i need to catch up but i still manage to 'flip through' those pages in these 3 days, i kinda 'super' rite... Haha...

Its IX-day tmmr, Jian promise to company to d book fair, i bet i might buy tons of books there... Hehe...

My bad day...

Well, i could juz said today isnt my day.

I easily offended people today with everything i said. LOL. 1st, My MUET teacher, Pn.Chia, she do not admit she is wrong in a discussion with me. Erm, i donno wat's her prob tat i seriously cant stand her. But i think she left d class with disatisfied cause my classmates supported me in d end.

My dance partner in school, Yasmin suddenly broke down and cried in d canteen after school. I donno wats her prob too. Did i said something wrong? Errr... she told me tat she is stress enough with a lot of stuft and with dance stuft... I juz said y don we cancel d dance instead, but she don wan. LOL!!

Here is d thing, mayb i juz hav d look making people bosong. When i was wit Nigel, he suddenly show me his unusual bosong look too, erm, did i said anything offend him? I cant recall as we juz discussing about d AMAZING RACE for coming lower 6.

Talking bout pis, my pet brother suddenly did not talk to me. Gosh, do i look like i am some for-people-angry person? Y is it all tis happen to me? O mayb they wan to make an april fool to me, lol, its not april.

Life still goes on. Wat to do, i cant juz go kill myself and forget everything. Juz act donno lo... Recession ma....

Endless

Seriously... wat brought me into tis mess?

I am juz a walking pupet now. Coz my life its like d same day by day. Goin school, eating, reading, listening, speaks and bla bla bla. Other than tat, my next performance which is on Hari Guru will b next week. My partner always think tat she is rite. Well, i would hav believe her if i aint 'pro' enough. Haha.

Well. My mentor-mantee is goin seriously bored coz my mantee isnt committing in it. BY then i hope she fail her mid year terriblely. The form 3 mantor mantee isnt goin much better too. Coz i am teaching her malay. Its a mat saleh. She told me she wanted to improve her malay. Gosh.. how could a person improve in language if she don speaks it daily.

Next week i will hav my MUET speaking test. Pn Chia is like wasting time in class. Hello!! We r form 6. We don need u to upgrade our knowledge in answering but we need u to correct our 'Manglish'. Well, she will nvr understand tat.

Even thought my life is as boring as sitting around, but d exam coming 2 more weeks. LOL. I think tis time i will juz skip school for 1 week juz to prepare for tat exam.

BZ month

erm...

Really long time din post here... haha.. well.. i was bz about my sofbol. I was having practices every weekdays from 3-5.30. Haiz, bored but hav too, coz the team need me.

Well, d MSSD juz end and we did not get a gud results. But we r still happy coz we won 1 of d team from Bukit Bintang which was well known a strong team, for us as a beginner really is a happy moment. I still remember tat moment which actually d last game for U18, and we was on d field, when we knock out d opponent, we should ashieve we won d champion. Luv tat situation.

Last IX-day was really fun. Coz Fang kai finally joined us and at d same time, Ian too joined us. Wow.. its really like a reunion for IX. We dance together, jokes around, and having dinner. So dam fun. I think tis IX-day would b d same too.

D installation for lower sixth form is coming and guess wat, I am on it. Well, teacher appointed me and I couldnt said no at all. LOL. Another bz project. Plus Hari Guru is around d corner, guess tat i couldnt b resting for tat week.

Last Saturday i had my MUET exam. Its a bit hard but i still manage to answer it. Hope i could get band 5 tis time. Erm, another exam which is speaking held on 12th. Er.... y they so lol.... cant make it same day?

Teachers oledy yelling at us about d coming mid year exam. Especially F6. Mayb becoz we hav more than 1k pages to study.. haha. I think i seriously needa b more agressive in class now due to Pn.Chia 'bosong' look. Haha. She might kill em sooner o later.