Life where it is always meant to be

When love comes, there are no way we can resist it,
No matter how much effort you try on other things,
You will still end up thinking about that person,
And after all you will think you are someone stupid.

When faith comes, we always do not notice about it,
No matter how much we try to control our own life,
You still end up thinking that everything are fixed,
And we will always regret for not doing good enough.

When time comes, we always can't resist of what it brought,
No matter how much thing we do for all those time that passed,
You still end up thinking how short it was and pathetic,
And we always think that it's so freaking not enough.

When it's time that everything are set and you're meant to learn about life, there are no way you can avoid it. So why don't we stay calm for it as well as stay relax for everything we wanted so at least by the end of everything we could at least tell ourselves we had achieved it in life and never regret for whatever had happened. Till then, life is just everything full of love and life is something we should live it meaningfully.

Missing You

I fall asleep with tears burning in my eyes,
I love you so much, and somtimes
I mistake truths for lies.

I've been hurt before, and your faith I must learn to trust
I should have realised by now
You are not one to give into lust.

I sit here on the couch
The yearbook in my hands
As I smile and frown at the photos
Listening to love songs from my favorite bands.

The summer will be long
My longing is nothing new.
And everyday I'm haunted
By the fact that I miss you.

Life full of love but problems

Well, one and hqpf month semester break and finally it will come to an end. If you ask me if i enjoyed it, of course i do, but then i just felt that it should have been longer. As usual my mum has strunggle and mumble lots of times to ask me get a job.

Ouch, i have plenty of time or maybe half of my life wasted on study, please just let me rest while i can before i kill myself because of those stress. Erm.. Any other thing i can said other than i cant be able to obtain job? More or less at least i'm living up to your expectAtion right?

Well nothing to be said other than i'm freakin mad while people is giving me stress, another stress where the university people are so selfish when they no longer need me around, the basically just call me when they face problems. Sweat, don you really have brains as people always said? Fuck it while you should always try your effort when you already get the post. And nOt by showing of your post but do not even have any cOntribution while you are needed.

Till then that i'm too kind tO offer helps when it come to such sotuation. So i stand no chance on complaining..

Friends Come and GO

When you come around, then I will go around.

Friends are always meant for our life, but it is only there for us to complete each other but they wouldn't be able for us for the whole life. Friends are something come and go, no matter how hard you try to maintain it, it will still come to an end one day. May be tomorrow, next year, or next 10 years.

No one ever notice how pathetic to have friends. It is true sometimes we could have true friendship but what if one of us have to move to somewhere far, will us still put in good enough commitment? I don't think so. As I have said earlier, friends come and go. I personally have a lot of friends in my life and some of it had make it to the level of good friend. But then i noticed this pathetic situation where it is so hard to maintain the friendship when we are seperate apart.

In this era, phone and internet connection has been a very easy tool for us to communicate among each other, which is also a Con to us where we still feel the blankness in us where they are not around us although we get to chat everyday. No matter what, friend are only meant for life but not meant to be there the whole life. I'm glad I have finally make sense on this point on my own because I will try not to fall for it so much. It is really a deep pain in the heart where the seperation make.

I myself, a very socialable person who have plenty of friends around, and too get some good friends, but then when we further on and do not have time to spent around like old days, i feel the crack of relationship within us. I cried, feel sad, lifelessly go through my life praying for better situation but till end i notice it wouldn't help at all. The only thing we can do towards those friends who we couldn't stay like before is to pray for their wealthness and as well as their successfulness in the future.

Till then, a pathetic story of Love and Life.

A Person

There is this person where I knew for a month..
We met through facebook..
A friend of my friend..
We had our first outing to curve..
We fell in love..
We have different personalities and background..
I love this person more than anyone I had..

But I don't know why I asked for break up..
Is it because I would be happy for it end up like this..
Or I do not want changes that make that person indifferent..
I Love that perosn truly..
I know..
Deep inside my heart..
Because it has been 2 months..
I still think of that person frequently..
I try to make it a pass..
But I always remembered our first kiss..
Where I bleed..
And it take years for me to forget..
I think..
It's not important anymore..
Because that person moved on..
I tried to..
Never have someone like this person appears..
Sometimes God has given the right person but..
Do we know how to appreciate it..

Praying That..

The minute I heared my first love story
I started looking for you
Not knowing how blind that was
Lovers don't finally meet somewhere
They're in each other all along
We don't always find the one we carry inside us
But LOVE is kind
HE give us second chances
I found mine
I hope you found yours too

One Day You Will Regret And You Will Realise That I Really Love You